TO DO or NOT To Do

We are at least once in our lifetime caught in the dilemma of to do or not to do 

It may be for various reasons, some of mine were/ are

To study further or not

To search for a new job or not

To take a chance and say YES

 or take the easy way out and say NO

invariably if one notices , Leaning towards safer side is almost always the case.

Safe in this context I am sure you have deduced by now to be NO

As with Yes comes commitments and responsibilities, It may also have its own repercussions, Failure being one of them.

Hence I need to contemplate well on the matter before taking anything on.

There are many words that flits through my mind like a Warning  just when I need to be decisive like "Look before you leap" or " from the  pan into the fire"

Makes me perspire just thinking of it.

There is a part of me I like to believe has an adventurous streak, buried in the deep dark recesses of my mind, raises itself and compels me to take the chance..

Then the moment passes, my years of developing a more, shall we say practical personality has probably suppressed it.

Or the "adventurous streak" was probably figment of my own imagination , defending my life of absolute boredom , bordering on an being  insipid.

Because if I was actually adventurous would I not be able to make reckless decision ,throwing caution into the wind, with no backward glance or thought  for the future?

Rather than weighing the Pros and cons so much that by the end of it , pros are starting  to look like cons,

If I had taken the time from all the pondering I was doing I would have realized that the opportunity had passed me, leaving me SAFE.

safe from making decisions I rather din't......

........Instead I sit by the window on calm evening and wonder what life would have been like if I had only  taken the risk said YES